Last Saturday I adjusted my fifth yoga class for yoga teacher training. We only had to adjust five classes before being given our teaching certificate, so as long as the director of the program approves the yoga class hours that I’ve sent her….I’m all done!! I’ll be mailed my certificate soon, and then I’ll be a certified yoga instructor!
There are currently two sets of married couples in my life who are asking me to start going to their houses to give them private yoga lessons. The wives of one of the couples wants me to start private yoga lessons with them this Fall, and she also wants to see me for Reiki healing.
In the last month I’ve been offered several jobs teaching yoga through a second person contact! My childhood dance teacher called and told me she had spoken about me to a program director at her church, and the program director wanted to know if I would like to come teach child yoga there! A coworker ran up to me at work just Monday of this week and told me she had a friend in D.C. looking to hire a yoga instructor for a project next month, and her friend wanted to know if I was interested.
So many opportunities to teach yoga are at my fingertips. So the question I ask myself is….why do I feel myself hesitant to take them?
The same could be said for my massage trade. Every month I get text messages from someone in my life, be it my Mom, or my brother, or my best friend, or someone random, saying that a friend/coworker/uncle is looking for a massage therapist to come to their home.
I never take any initiative with all of these invitations that I constantly receive. All year I told myself that as soon as I finish yoga teacher training I would buy a new massage/reiki table along with lotion, aromatherapy oils, yoga blocks and straps, etc, to get a side business going. Have I been done with school for several months? Yes. Have I done any of that? No.
So many people as me about Reiki. So many people ask about yoga. So many people ask if I offer massage outside of my job.
Why don’t I? I have so many gifts in my hands, and I keep them to myself. I can feel the knowledge base and experience of these gifts strengthen in me over time. My body gets stronger and stronger every month that I continue to practice hot yoga. The concepts of deep breathing, tissue manipulation, inversions, and meditation take on a new meaning for me as time goes on.
Why don’t I share these gifts with the world? Why do I hold myself back?
I’m going to dedicate to rest of this Summer to finding out why I just can’t take this step. Every time I practice yoga I will set my intention to find this truth. I’m tired of holding myself back. I’m tired of feeling like I’m not good enough.
It’s time to really throw myself out into the world, and see if I can make it.