My fiancé and I spent this past weekend at the beach, and while I was in my bikini I….well, I took a selfie.
I started yoga (and yoga teacher training) this past Fall and my body has changed a lot in the last eight months. More so, it’s changed even more in the last twelve months, for I had just finished losing some extra weight before I jumped into yoga and teacher training.
The way my body has looked these past few months has pleased me. It feels good to look in the mirror and like what I see. I find my life to be very different just from simply feeling comfortable in my own skin. There’s a certain freedom to feeling like I can put on any dress, any shirt, or any pair of pants, and not look or feel “fat”.
Anyhow, I posted this selfie on both Twitter and Instagram….and then felt too embarrassed to post it on Facebook.
My embarrassment and not wanting to feel “slutty” amused me. I have many, many female friends who post pictures of themselves in bikinis on Facebook, and I never have any negative reactions such as “wow, that’s slutty!” or “I can’t believe she did that.”
I have no idea why I felt so embarrassed and nervous about posting it, especially since I’ve been feeling a lot more physically confident lately.
My fiancé and my friend Natalie finally gave me the courage to post it….and so I did! I got a lot of responses, but the most significant response for me was from one of my two yoga teacher trainers.
She told me to make sure that I advertise for any yoga classes that I teach with a picture of myself in a bathing suit doing a yoga pose, and that I look great.
I was immediately surprised and slightly taken aback by her comment. Did she really tell me to advertise myself in a bathing suit, in a yoga pose, to inspire people to take my yoga classes??
She did, and I’m glad that she did. I never would have thought to do that on my own. I never would have thought that that would be “okay.” A big part of me was honestly hoping that she wouldn’t see the bikini selfie because I thought she’d disprove of me attaching my yoga practice with how my body looks. (I captioned the picture referencing my new “yoga body”.)
I’m really glad that I have her in my life and on Facebook. I still know so little about yoga and the yoga world, and if I hope to start teaching someday I’m going to need her help.
Tomorrow my friend Rita is joining me for a Baptiste power flow class before work, and then on Sunday we’re getting together for a Bikram class after work!
Rita had never done yoga before joining me for her first class this past Winter. I took her to a yin/yang yoga class, and since then she’s gone to a few classes on her own.
It feels really good to know that I’ve been able to get friends (I’ve gotten a few more beside her) into yoga. The fact that she’s meeting me twice in one weekend for a class is pretty exciting!
I was really scared that my yoga practice would kind of…vanish, I guess, after teacher training ended. Since I jumped into both yoga and teacher training at the same time, I think I assumed that stopping one meant the dwindling of the other.
Teacher training has been over for a few weeks now, and so far I’m finding that to be very untrue. Especially when I have people like my one teacher and Rita in my life to keep me going.
I’m looking forward to both hot classes this weekend, as well as “adjusting” my teacher’s class Saturday morning. Only four more classes to “adjust” before I get my teaching certificate! I should have it by the end of this month.
That’s a very exciting fact. Namaste!